I’ve been reading everyone’s new year’s resolutions on social media. I don’t have any this year. That makes me feel very behind, on the sidelines, out of touch, and all that jazz. Not that I haven’t been doing anything. It’s just that I went through the holidays in a haze, suddenly jumped on a plane to NY, came home and was catapulted into 2016. I’ve had no time to reflect on the past year, or envision what’s ahead, except cathing. For better or worse, I see cathing in my future loud and clear.
I started a new 365 Devotional called Savor: Living Abundantly Where You Are, As you Are by Shauna Niequist. It was a birthday gift from a sweet friend. I displayed it on my coffee table in May anticipating and saving it for the new year. Today I opened it up and the line that jumped out to me was “start where you are.”
Clearly I don’t have all my ducks in a row and my ambitious goals sketched out, but I can start where I am. In the fog surrounding me at the start of 2016, I can take a step forward. And then another and another. Already I have some clarity around Nathan’s health. Now I can take one step at a time praying and hoping the haze will lift more and more. And that at the end of the year I will see how God directed my steps with purpose even when I couldn’t see clearly at the time.
So I will start 2016 right where I am, savoring each step, trusting the One who guides me.
In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps.” -Proverbs 16:9
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